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Wanted

Wanted
By: Travis Montez

this is not
a list
as much as
it is a prayer
a test of faith
a letter in a bottle
a request
if you will
see



i have waited for
hoped for
never believed in
but still asked for
but then settled for
and sabotaged

i have been
careless
with my heart
all these
many, many years
and even though
my heart
is strong
and forgiving
willing even
to fall
and break
and heal
and get back up

my heart
these days
is seeking
only
a place
to love

be honest
and smart
be funny
have passion and joy
want kids
care about people
and the world
laugh
from the inside out

touch me
because you can't help yourself
be undeniably
unavoidably
thankfully
attracted to me

see me
stand up to and for me
know
that i would much rather
be in your arms
than on any pedestal

be afraid of commitment
or intimacy
and still commit
and be intimate
because
you can't imagine
a life
not close
to me

a life
without
what you know
we could build

cook
and let me take care of the dishes
lets have quiet times
on Sunday mornings
reading
papers or magazines or books
or each others palms
let me discover
the sound
of your heartbeat
every morning

appreciate
the bath i run for you
or the white candles i light
to set a mood
when you need
to leave the world
because your day been hard

let me
write poems for you
leave them
in your bag
for you to find
during your commute
or at lunch
because ever so often
i will find
another way
that i love you
and have to
put it
on paper
and give to you

forgive me
when i fall short
and know
that i am in love
even with the parts of you
that are imperfect

dance with me
get caught with me
in rain showers
laugh
when i spill
things on my shirt
understand
how moody i get
when i lose in court
and make me laugh
(from the inside out)

kiss me
like the end
of a romantic comedy
forever kind of kisses
like you are planting
love with your lips
and yes
for the most part
make love to me
express
us
with your body
but sometimes
fuck me
like the rent
depended on it

make home
with me
live here
in my hands
in my heart
please
i heard once
maybe
in a movie
that when you find
the person
you want to spend
the rest of your life with
you should want
the rest of your life
to begin
now

yeah
the truth is
i have the kind of heart
that if you give me
a little bit
to hold on to
i can wait
forever

give me
a little bit
and i will
make up
the rest

so i have to
put this
in the prayer
in the bottle:

if you
cannot
be honest and smart
and funny
if you cannot laugh
from the inside out

if you are not
unavoidably
undeniably attracted

if your hands
or heart or lips
do not reach for me

if you have doubts
and fear
but no desire
to over come either
ignore this prayer
put this message back in the bottle
cast it back
into the sea
it
and i
are not meant
for you
please
you are not
what's wanted
or needed
here
his is not
your particular
love story...

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